I am drifting, the next minute Rick says the ambulance is here. I awake and the ambulance men are at my side asking me what had happened and I tell them and I tell them the pain is really bad they put a needle into my hand to give me something for the pain. The next thing I remember is Suzie being next to me and she is reasurring me that I'm going to be ok. The ambulance guys don't want to take me to the hospital by road so they ring for the helicopter service. I am getting really cold now. I need a blanket, I'm so cold. The news comes back that they have to wait for a helicopter from Tamworth as the one from Lismore is in service. But it's a wait of 4 hours. I just want to get to the hospital to get fixed. This is not good. I am too cold, I don't want to wait. They have a board under me, they are moving me, they have moved me closer to the fire. I can hear the helicopter and they say they have to land in the next paddock I remember being carried to the helicopter over rough ground.
I don't know who came with me but next I am at the hospital. Suzie, Jenni and Alison are there, my sister Linda and Mum and Dad. They all look so worried. They have been there for hours waiting for me to arrive. They have known since around 9 o'clock and now its 12 noon. Alison is crying with Suzie. I have to get X rayed. I am told that my back is broken and I have to be flown down to Sydney straight away. I am packed up in what feels like polystyrene pellets and hung in a hammock ( I don't know if that is right, it's what I think I can remember) in a plane to Sydney and my daughter Jenni is with me. She is scared of flying but I'm glad I'm not on my own. I'm also glad that I'm able to stay asleep and not feel too much pain.
Next I'm in North Shore Hospital and the doctors saying that they will operate on me tomorrow as it is too late now for a theatre. I'm upset as I want to be fixed now then the pain will start to stop.
It's the next day. I am given the option of either have rods and screws in my back and be able to move about straight away or be put in a cast and stay rigid for 6 weeks, which might not be successful. Rick has arrived with my mum. I'm in so much pain now so I tell them to do what's best and they go for the rods and screws....... I'm away again....wake up in a bed in a ward with Jenni there..... it's so good to see her...good on ya Jen
I'm in a ward with 3 blokes... and I'm in alot of pain and the phone is ringing.....Oh God, this is not good..but Jenni is there...and mum..all day...I'm sleeping...
The phone keeps ringing and everyone is calling me to see how I am and wishing me well. I'm amazed at how many people know now. I'm getting visitors...brother Lee and wife Lisa, my friend Joanne and Winky.... so many people ring and come but I am under the influence of some pretty big drugs so it's all a bit blurry. I am aware that the other patients have to listen to me saying over and over " I fell off a ladder and broke my back"
Rick has come in a few times but is not keen to stay around. He goes visiting his friends and goes site seeing. He has not behaved well and has said and done some silly and unkind things. I'm so dissapointed... I lived with this guy....I thought he would be there for me, I thought that he cared about me....I thought he loved me....he was having a bad time and he was blaming me. He said that I fell off a ladder and ruined his life....... It was his ladder in his house.
I will wake up and it all won't be true..will it? Please God don't let it all be true... I'm going to get better and tomorrow it will be different......
Saturday, July 26, 2008
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Oh Jeanie! I cried the whole way through this, I remember the day so clearly as you do. Nannie called and asked if Lee was there, I could hear she was upset but wouldnt tell me anything. She spoke to Lee and the next minute we had Emma is the car in her PJ's and were driving to you. Lee said Jenny is there and I said we cant leave her there to cope with all this. We walked into the room and were not sure if it was you in the bed or not, your usually the one jumping around the place and having a good time. Lee was scared that once we saw you it would be real. Little Toby was still in my belly jumping around, he knew something was going on, I remember you were the first Willsher to hold him when you were at Ryde, it was a very special moment to me and Emma took one of her dollies over to you so you would have someone to cuddle. I always say to people everytime I buy a lotto the first of this money goes to Jeanie. I hope you get what you want Darlin, its been a long time since we saw you dance.
We love you
Lisa, Lee, Emma and Toby xxxx
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